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sweetprettygeek:

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sweetprettygeek:

So I was going back through all the diamond scenes ( ~for research~ ) and I noticed something interesting and sad.

As far back as her non-flashback introduction in “Steven’s Dream”, Blue Diamond refers to Pink Diamond by name.

In contrast, Yellow Diamond never says Pink’s name in the timeline proper. With Yellow, it’s always “she” or “her”.

This is a nice little detail that highlights the difference in how Blue and Yellow cope with their grief: Blue clings, Yellow erases. Blue is denial and depression, Yellow is anger and bargaining.

Then “Reunited” aired. Things changed.

Aside from Stevonnie’s “Jungle Moon” dream, this is the only time Yellow Diamond ever calls Pink Diamond by name. And this reference to her lost sister/daughter is accompanied by a miserable, crushing sense of guilt.

No wonder Yellow tries so hard to obscure Pink’s memory—to avoid every mention of her and what happened to her. She holds herself personally and exclusively responsible for Pink Diamond’s demise. The only way she can attempt to move on from her self-blame is to forget about Pink.

But she can’t. Her excuse to come to Earth may have been the Cluster, but the first thought of hers Steven accessed was about Pink Diamond. For a gem who has a lot on her mind constantly (and was in the middle of a battle), this suggests that she thinks about Pink way more often than she lets on.

Very very interesting points! I also noticed that Yellow never mentioned Pink by name, but wondered if it was just because her rather limited screentime hadn’t allowed it yet.

What I’d like to add, is that it seems as while Yellow holds at least part of the blame on herself, Blue seems to be completely unaware of her partial fault in Pink’s demise. You can see it pretty clearly in the way she assumes her relationship with Pink went (that we can pretty much debunk by now- Blue wasnt very close to Pink, at least not from pink’s perspective). In the way she loads others with her own grief and claims that “they deserve this”. Her overall shock at the fact another Diamond could’ve been responsible for Pink’s demise. Her obsessive grieving. And lastly, her inner monologue, that had more to do her realization that torturing the gems does not provide her any satisfaction or happiness than any real guilt on her part.

That’s because Blue is much more selfish than Yellow. It might come off as a surprise to some because on the surface Blue looks like the more sympathetic one (and I’m not saying that she isn’t) but where Yellow tries to take responsibility, Blue drops it, and plays the victim. And the most interesting thing- the show doesnt automatically make her a villain for it. Because there are a lot of people in real life that have a similar mindset, and that does not mean theyre intentionally bad.

Blue Diamond is a fragile person. She’s emotionally unstable, unintentionally harmful to those she loves (mainly Yellow), and extremely self observed. Grieving certainly only highlighted these features in her, and at this point, the only gem who could’ve opened her eyes to it (Yellow) doesn’t do so because she’s afraid of breaking Blue even further. But now that we have Steven come into the picture again, things might change.

Yes! All of this!

It’s possible that I’m reading too much into Yellow’s disuse of Pink’s name, but seeing as almost every one of her appearances centers around Pink Diamond in some form, it seems very odd that her name wouldn’t come up even once. “It’s been thousands of years, Blue, and you still can’t bring yourself to shatter these gems? She was shattered by a rose quartz.” could have easily been written as “Pink was shattered by a rose quartz.” Antecedents are a crucial apart of using pronouns (even more so in a species of exclusively females), so the absence of one here gets my English-minor spidey senses tingling.

Add to that the fact that Yellow is very formal. She refers to everyone by name.

It seems like its her way of staying in control of things, of asserting dominance and command. That she’d avoid Pink’s name like the plague is a sign to me that she connects something deeply personal and vulnerable with even the mention of her fellow diamond.

Neither Yellow nor Blue has been dealing with the loss of Pink Diamond in a healthy way. Grieving has made Blue increasingly self-centered, causing her to push away her responsibilities to the gems who follow her and reject Yellow’s attempts to help her. Yet, as you said, this selfishness comes with minimal self-reflection, as it’s clear she’s putting the burden of Pink’s demise on everyone but herself. 

On the other hand, the bereavement has made Yellow very erratic. Sometimes she acts like the strong, calm, logical leader that Peridot and Holly Blue see her as, but in the next moment she’s yelling and poofing gems left and right. Because she has repressed her grief and internalized the blame for Pink’s shattering, Yellow is constantly causing herself emotional harm. And when anyone reminds her too much of the tragedy, she lashes out like a wounded animal.

What really interests me is that, despite initial appearances, Yellow Diamond is the most empathetic between herself and Blue. I need to go back and get screenshots, but when they are on screen together, Yellow is always watching Blue, trying to gauge her reactions and shield her from anything that might upset her unnecessarily. In contrast, Blue doesn’t even seem to consider that Yellow is still mourning Pink too, until she breaks down at the end of “What’s the Use of Feeling Blue?”

It makes me wonder if they even had an opportunity to comfort each other after Pink’s demise, or if Yellow just threw herself back into work and Blue immediately isolated herself from everyone.